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Remembering the way things used to be is making me feel sick. Everything has changed, and I don't know if it's because of you or me or just the natural way of things. But I hate where we stand now, and I would give anything to have it back to the way it used to be, when cuddles and hugs and smiles were normal, where we didn't worry so much about the heavy crap, and we could escape the world for a little while and just be. I miss the way we used to be. It was better then. I know I've changed and I'm sorry. I'm hoping that through all the fights, all the crap I've put you through, all the awkwardness that's passed....hopefully, we're still the good friends we started out as, and hopefully, one day, we can go back to being those people we used to be. The ones we were before I screwed it all up. I miss the easy way you used to smile at me, the simple way we could just hang out and not have to say anything at all. The way you just knew when I needed a hug, or a friend, and you were there for me. I miss movie marathons, and laughter, and knowing that no matter how shitty life felt, you were still there. I miss being able to see you 3 or 4 times a week, texting you at 3am just because I could and I knew you would answer, back rubs, and talking about nothing, sleepless nights, and sleeping through days. I miss us.
You are my everything (and other stupid phrases)
You are my world.
The only thing that brings me happiness.
You are everything to me.
I don't know what I would do without you.
Too often do I hear these words, exchanged between lovers, partners, spouses, and significant others. When I hear it, I pause, every time, for just a moment, and ponder.
To me, these don't sound like words of love or lust. They sound like words of dependence, words of obsession, words of greed and need. Unfair burdens to place on your partner. Words ringing with the echoes of lost independence, loss of self.
Your only source of happiness. Your only reason for living. Seems like an awful lot of responsibility to pla
Back in the good old days...
Remember back when you were like 16 when a make out session was just that. It was all hands in hair, and sweaty palms and easy laughter and there was never any pressure, it never had to lead anywhere, it just felt good? No sleaze, no morning after regrets, no "what was I thinking", no pregnancy scares....just simple intimacy without the serious implications? I miss that. I miss make out sessions on the couch in front of the tv, falling asleep fully clothed, steamy kisses that never had to mean anything more. I miss the mystery, the simplicity....
I miss having a boyfriend and not knowing what his junk looked like.
I miss being with a guy an
Honestly?
I'm disappointed, depressed, and somewhat pissed off at people these days. We treat others like crap, take them for granted, ignore their needs/wants/feelings in favor of our own, and rather than just be straight up and honest, we get distant and strange. We expect them to know what's wrong, yet refuse to actually say anything. We ask for honesty, then get angry when it's not what we want to hear. We get mad when they're honest with their feelings and expect them to conceal them in favor of our own comfort. We spill our hearts and souls through a social media network, yet can't seem to speak up face to face. We lack the honesty, respect and l
Devious Journal Entry
Painting is almost done! :D If I can get a decent picture with my crappy camera I'll post one very soon :)
Hopefully will be having a small photoshoot with a friend of mine as well soon...so will have those pics asap :)
Been spinning poi alot lately too, and besides being an amazing emotional relief, it's a great workout. Good exercise to help me with my dieting...10 pounds for the summer music festival season would be ideal. Note to self: no more sweets..or pasta...or...anything awesome. Blargh. Oh well...sacrifices must be made to the bikini gods.
It comes to mind that if he ever actually reads anything on here, my last few deviations wo
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